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Thursday, September 29, 2005

thursddaaayyy

its a thuurrrsssdaaayyyy. the second week is almost up! tmr friday! can enjoy.
its so damn unfair that the nyp year 1s came this week n are leaving next week n here we are still THERE. siann.
y a w n*.
i've become super robotic already. everyday is almost the same.
wake up. go for CA. come back. sleep. wake up. bla bla bla.
found out today that they gonna pay us 10bucks per day. ahuh k. better than nothing for my slavery. morning shift today was SUPER boring.
bed 10 uncle damn nice n funneehhh. he asked me today why there is a rather old student nurse from xxx who is so fat n said that her fats shaking here n there is very unsightly. rahahhaha. then he took a photo of rachel n I on his camera phone. rahhhhah he also took adeline n fathiah too. fat for short. n he saved it as 'Adeline Fat' n Adeline jokingly said like just imagine Cass Fat or Fat Cass. rahhhhhhhhaha. ME= FAT? rahahhaha. unlikely for years to come.

y must we be burden with HW during attachmennnttt? case study n additional hw needs to be done. dammmn. so lazy.

Came home. helped my dad with his hp. had some problems with it. y a w n. today suprisingly i didnt have my afternoon nap.

DAMN! I JUST FOUND OUT THAT CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY N SOPHIA BUSH HAVE SEPERATED!! :(

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

TUESDAY

when i boarded the 27 bus in the morning, i saw 2 kc totally not nerdish girls. their belts were like freaking tight n high. what happ to the convent trend of low loose belts?

today was okay i guess. had new nyp year 1s in the ward. made new friends. had a particular year 2 nyp girl whom mostly everyone wanted to slap coz she was super bossy n think she is a know it all. like whatever. not even listening to u.. so plz like buzz off!

the CF incharge of us kept bugging us for like the entire last week n counting. she always comes to our ward. geeezzzz. she also kept wanting to see our journal n asking us whats OUR OBJECTIVES FOR TODAY FOR EVERYDAY! well, my objective for today is to go home n sleep.

oh! look at the time now. its 4plus in the afternoon! if a certain person X is reading this, while i was typing this u were working ur ass off cleaning asses n balls. (: y a w n.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Sunday

went to church today with jess, nat n ruth.
I cant stop gorging on food today.
swissroll coz of the lots of sugar on top (Jess: why not u just buy a packet of sugar?) WHATEVER JESS!
hotdog pastry from polar in mobil.
chicken pie
a slice of pizza
more than 6 rum n raisin chocolate cubey size
ice cream cone with 3 scoops
mango pudding.
choco,icecream n mango pudding were all consume within less than an hour when I remembered I have CA tmr. haiz.

a part of me is kinda happy coz of certain stuff happening to me right now but another part is like depressed for 8hrs 5x a week x 4 weeks. whatever. wake me up when september ends AT LEAST. i wish i was dead for the remaining 3 weeks.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

20thsept

i hate today.
came late.
when it was from 645 onwards, there was one n only word that was in my vocab. fuck.
i never cried and shouted at a taxi man before. well, theres a first for everything. woww. rite. whatever. he totally cheated my money when that bloody ass knew i was late n he still dared go one bloody round. arrghh. so pissed off already till i threw my 10bucks at him n told him to keep the change. he prob gained a dollar profit. whatever. go n buy extra roti n kopi for all i care.

reached the ward at 715. oh great. have to replace 90mins. whoopee. whatever. told the NM n the clinical facilitator whether i could skip my lunch n just replace another 45 mins after 3. i could have died. didnt even eat. oh n WOW suddenly i felt something. n i instantly knew what i was having. great.

345pm, i totally had it. I took cab home coz was having cramps. n an ite boy was like "WAHH".wtf. what to WAHH about when it was not even a limo.
oh the momment i stepped out of the cab, great, the back of my dress had turned red. WOW. thanks a lot. n i was lifting the bottom of my dress slightly like as though i purposely wanted to give the bangla men free show.
I M SO PISSED OFF TODAY. i never frowned while eating nor watching a comedy tv show before. 20th september sucks.

whatever. gonna email denise now.

I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh everyday of my life.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Monday, September 19, 2005

19thsept

y must people always try to act like a know-it-all when they actually arent?
y do some try to act superior than others when actually by height, u can step on them?
y are the nicer people hidden in places u never ever knew you could find?

some may have a happy and smiling exterior but inside, its constantly screaming n crying n just hope u could stand above the highest building n jump.. taking all the troubles away.

today is a penis night day. big.small.polly pocket size. Joyce: "so whats ur ideal size?" LOL.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Friday, September 16, 2005

16thsept

if u came here to find out what i did for today especially, ok here it is.
woke up.
went to sch.
did PAS exam.
went out.
came home.

now, u be "went out with who?" rite? i went out with..

wait, wait, dont get too excited coz the secret will finally come to an end of assumptions.

i went out with..

maybe u should pay me $5 or more/per alphabet so that i can tell u the name of the person. :D

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

14sept

I hope the feelings are mutual.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

13th sept

ok I so have to write about today even though I planned not to since exams n all. haha.

left the house exactly the same time as yesterday.
Joyce called when I was at only farrer park telling me she's at outram already. WOW. OK. JOYCE IS SOOOOO EARLY. I bet she cant wait to take MIC exam coz she loves sterilizing n disinfecting things sooo much. :)

sat for exam. Freezing cold. The paper was... o...k? At least my written answers were less embarrassing than yesterdays FON paper. For FON paper, I totally knew that I din't know the answer to the Q but I still wrote down wrong answers just so I don't have to see a blank page. HEH. Reminds me of how I used to do my Malay compos. Did not understand what the hell the Q was abt so I created my own Q.

Anyway, was waiting for Joyce to end the paper, she gave her signal. COUGHING. Couldn't help but smile like a dork to myself as it seemed so real. Really. Later I found out she actually choked on her own saliva. tsk tsk.

left school. Told Joyce about my dream about some minah scolding me coz I stole her crush. LOL.
HEH.

OH N JOYCE IS SO LAME LORRR. Went to clementi mrt toilet ya n so I let Joyce enter the toilet cubicle first. Then the one next to hers was free but I doubt she knew initially. Then I knocked on the partition of the wall for fun n threw tissue paper over for FUN AGAIN. Cheap thrills of freaking her out that some goon "stranger" is playing with her. I BET SHE GOT SCARED coz she didn't know I was the one doing it. was laughing [silent laughter..lol] my ass off inside the cubicle. So then she asked me which cubicle I was in. Obviously, I didn't reply. So she decided to play the same lame trick back at me by hiding at the right hand staircase but she didn't know I went up the other staircase n went straight up to the platform of the mrt. When I purposely smsed her "goodbye", I BET SHE REALIZED SHE HAD BEEN A FOOL STANDING AT THE STAIRCASE THINKING SHE COULD SCARE ME. Please! HAHA.

n when came to sengkang lrt platform, I boarded to wrong train.. Luckily I realized early so I just walked out normally while people stared at me. Duh. They must be wondering what the hell I was doing- going in, standing there for 10secs n then walk out like as though I just wanted the aircon.

Just now watched Heartlanders. omgggggggg. I cant stand it! That freaky girl. ahaha. btw, Aaron aziz is so cute. heeehhh.

n now typing this blog laughing at Joyce/anonymous/The one UNORRIGINAL CURSE to me. Joyce is a Neo The matrix wannabe. HAH.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Sunday, September 11, 2005

day before exam.

ok wow. today i studied. duh. coz i panicked. counted how many hours before 7pm. exactly 7hrs.after 7pm brain just stops n buzzes.

i miss secondary sch life! all the times used to without fail get scolded by my f&n teacher [ who thinks wearing black make her thinner. makes her look fatter n blacker] for switching on the rice cooker, smiling at ppl across the room, for saying wrong answers n for many many other stuffs. but i definately dont miss lessons n her. eew. plz. cant cook. cant even sew for home econs. i make a failure future wife. all i can do is reheat stuff n bake hard break the wall muffins.

i miss the time when denise n i threw staple bullets at our bio/cathechism teacher gelled hair in sec 2. miss the times in malay class when i made fake book reports about ppl dying n when cikgu wanted to actually see the book, i claimed the lib was too far n i forgot where i borrowed. n the times i would smile or laugh while she scolded me. i miss the times when i coloured jess shirt red n we poked her name tag through it n pretended she was bleeding. i miss the time when ruth n i used to talk abt our geog teachers unshaven hairy armpits in sec 5. i will never stop laughing at nat for the time she said carbon dioxide is one of the elments of Fats. rahhhaha.

these are memories to keep close to my heart.
its time to make new ones.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Friday, September 09, 2005

9thSept

Woke up with a lousy feeling. shitty. Its like everyday for this week whenever I wake up, I know must study but I just rather not. Then when it comes to the end of the day, I'd hope it never comes nearer to the following week or else I'm screwed.

hope the day just freeze in time n let me catch up.

my mum asked if I wanted to go swimming with Jaclyn today. I wish I cld. but I would definitely suffer from excessive guilt. Like I have no idea why since half the time whenever I am at home for this week, all I do is eat n doodle with the highlighters. I think I kinda take advantage of the fact that I will never gain weight no matter how much I eat. I wont be surprised that one day at a certain hour or minute, I just explode to become some fat girl with fat legs n tiny toes assuming there are fats somewhere in my body.

mum sprayed my room with insecticide today n changed the bedsheets just incase of any bugs or whatever. The smell has yet to leave n I, stupidly actually sat in the room listening to music for half an hour like as though I fell in love with the insecticide smell coz it SOOO smells like rosemary or whatever. I have reached the point of being brain dead.

oh n today's studying was sooo successful rite. please. yea I wrote notes. notes on the songs to download.

yesterday watched OC. duh rite. tsk. guys can be such asses. hmph. denise [aka DENIES KNAG] n I were talking once about how guys now never make the first move n now its mostly the girls. HAHH. yeaa. soon we be the ones domineering the world! waaaaaahhah. rite. lame.

I hate everything about today.

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

7sevenTH Sept

people who are meant to be always find their way in the end.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

6sixth sept

woke up at 10.30plus am today. damn sleeppppy.

watched cartoons on nickelodeon till 12. rahhhhh.

had a lizard crawling on the wall today n mum tried to kill it with our electrocuting badminton racket specially for insects. haha. yeaa its a badminton racket-ty like thing with wires that has volts running thru it. LOL. Anyway the lizard couldn't die so my mum placed maskin tape over it. I wasn't much of a help since I have this anti-insects/bugs kind of thing.

Beelian called. talked abt stuff for awhile. then I asked her "so u really want to be a nurse huh?" n she went "I DON'T WANT TO GET AIDS LEH!!REALLY!!" AHAhahahahahahahaha. damn funny lahh she. Then that MISSY kept telling me to go n study n accused me midway that I wasn't. lol. eeeeehhhhh! [ I told u tt I write about u!]

Its so unfair! My mum went out shopping in town today with my sister while I stayed at home. n I actually wanted to stay at home coz if I didn't, I'd feel so guilty. HEY I HAVE CONSCIENCE OK N I ALSO A VERY GOOD GIRL.

watched heartlanders just now. omg that sonia girl is FREAKY. but she acts really well being all psycho n all.

sometimes dont u wish ppl u dislike just drop dead n die? plz start alphabetically.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Sunday

woke up at 9am. damn tired coz slept at 2am [hurrr hurr hurr coz had a rather INTERESTING sms conversation with a certain person. wahha. :D] omg not even 8 hr rest.

went for mass. sisters husband adult confirmation. so now she can finally register for marriage in church.

came home. Watched CSI-NY. went on msn chatted with denise n others for less than an hour.

went CP to meet Hutchinson. ate mcflurry, fries n coke [ahah COKE]. talked, talked n talked more. just chatted endlessly about a guy who has small slippers to other STUFF.

came home. ate dinner. called beelian. Trying to avoid studying u see. talked for awhile. laughed. ahhha.

n here i am now. writing in my blog so i wouldnt have to sit at my desk n open up my notes n start highlighting. hmph.

ok i am editing it. bored. watched wicker park just now. josh harnett. abt some psycho girl doing psychotic things just to spilt him n lisa up. am quite affected by it. lol. dunno why but i just hope none of that shit happens to me. must also totally remind myself not to turn psychotic just coz of a guy. hmm know some who do. scary. totally not worth it.

i dont care if u stay in a mansion with 10 maids n a swimming pool. i dont care if u stay in a alley with a cardboard as ur bed. i dont care. i dont need ur money to buy me. all i need is u.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Friday, September 02, 2005

Its a Friday night.

Thinking about it is really killing my brain cells. The moment I wake up till the moment I go to bed, this issue is like engraved in my mind. 24/7 I am like HOW? WHAT do I do? What should I do? I just feel like telling her I want out but I still don't even have a confirmed backup yet. Hmph. What to do? Haiz.

Argghhh. Freaking Trey. How could he be such an ass towards marrisa?! HMMMPPHHH! Hope Ryan kicks his freaking ass in the next episode.

Today went to sch for pathetic 2 hours for MIC. Ms Lam ArrHHH is damn funny with her pronunciation of words. OUNDS n autoCRAVE. Hurrhurrhurrrrrrr. Later on had an interesting day with MS HOOPS-ON-HAIR! TEE HEE HEE. I AINT MADishly-drunk OK! we took neoprint[above] n I will only show ONE out of 4 lame poses we did. Too embarrassed. AS U CAN SEE, I was trying to smile like her n she trying to smile like a goon. RAHHHAH.

I WANNA WATCH RED EYE! HEH.

My hand is free. Are u too afraid for a little faith in me? Somehow I feel like I am already lost. What would I do if I didn't have you n all by my side helping me through my troubles.

I tend to wonder if u are even thinking of me right now.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Thursday, September 01, 2005

HELLO!

HAHA. today had both NSL n AAP pract test. Initially, was damn nervous for NSL pract test since the first CT one i kinda screwed up. Anyway, it was OKAY i guess.hmph. The model whom i did on, was very helpful! :D Anyway, whats done is done.

WAS kinda happy after NSL pract was over till when FON tutorial started. HMPHH. Not really upset over our screwed up powerpointless presentation, but more on what i saw on something that is black n white. WHICH THEREFORE made me even more upset and added more fire to my feelings on the issue which I am already struggling with.

Anyway, i took 74 home today! wahaha. whatever. it just has been long since i took that bus to reflect, relax n visit roaches. U know I have this horrible habit of smilling to myself when I AM ALONE. I was actually thinking of the misinterpreted conversation Joyce GUO n i had on the telephone about facial masks. it had something to do with our thought of MASKS. While i was thinking of those facial beauty masks, she was thinking of Oxygen masks. Joyce- "HUH? y u wear Oxygen mask at home?" n this was followed by my few minutes of silent laughter n her HELLO?HELLO? Anyway it was kinda funny. YEA. Then there was this old man climbing the overhead bridge and was smiling broadly to himself n i was like oh my god.. siao. n i kinda quickly walked faster. SO THIS IS WHAT PPL PROB THOUGHT WHEN THEY SAW ME! TEE HEE HEE. anyway i not some kind of looney [According to Stella's tee, its LONNEY tunes. yup thats how its spelt] k. its just a bad habit. hur hur.

Hmmm.. i kinda was peeping at a guys story book and saw a rather interesting quote. Seeing's believing, but feeling's the truth - Thomas Fuller.

TONIGHT THERE IS OC!! WAHAHAHA.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine