clad in a wintercoat zipped up to the neck, long pants and gloves, i sat typing away at the labtop next to the window praying for snow to come. HAH. like that day will come.
the furthest it will go in Uniquely Singapore is chilly heavy rain.
Still, i will wear my boxer shorts and a big comfy tee shirt which i will not be caught dead in further than 1m from my house gate.
My entry today is on
HATE
isnt it such a strong word?
i shall use DISLIKE.
why do u dislike certain ppl?
cause they aren't like u ?
cause they are too dominating ?
cause they CONSTANTLY are attention-seeking ?
cause they fail to accept you as who you are ?
cause they misunderstand or misjudge YOU before knowing you properly ?
cause they are such a mother-f to even accept what you say ?
that's life.
it sucks for the suckers.
sometimes u feel like slapping certain ppl. no no, i rather break their procelin face for being SOBs or for being pretencious.
anyway, besides from my personal thoughts, school was kinda fun today besides the dreadful lectures i've been having all week. Television & Radio so far has been more hands on. rather than sitting on the freaking chair and staring at the wall clock and waiting for it to tick to the time of dismissal.
Today we learnt photo framing. like how to differenciate a mid length shot, close up shot, long shot, extreme close up shot and whatever. so each of us had to bring 5 photos to class. i brought 2 baby photos of myself and my bro and 1 baby pic of annur. and the remaining two was a tom welling pic and dennis keller photo which i cut from a magazine. lol. anyway, we cut out from magazines and other pics to show the diff shots. that was our first activity.
After break, our second activity was to take pictures of those diff kind of shots ourselves on digicam or camera phones and make a story out of it.
So cheryl, Michelle, ying ying and I took pics of the background, of us at the corridor and cheryl & I posed outside the toilet. lol
It was fun.
After we were done, we were allowed to leave! which was around 4 pm smt.
yayyyy.
the rain made me a lazy pig.
but i aint a piggy.
"ehhh you know that girl? you know what is her name?"
"no. what?"
"Ms Piggy."
"It rhymes. ***** the piggy."
Monday, August 28, 2006
LOVEthis is just a general thought that I decided to blog about.
not directed at anyone !
Loving someone who is not there emotionally & physically.
no, I aint talking about my relationship with my m.a.b.a.r
anyway, sometimes a person may feel like they have fallen for someone
but can't have them cause maybe he or she feels they were not meant to be or did something to jeopardize their chances or maybe just feel that its a one-way liking.
well,
1. How do ya know you both are not meant to be? Did u die n rised to heaven to see ya future that you could have n then resurrected from the dead so as to continue ya life?
2. How do you know if the person feels the same about not-meant-to-be thingy? Did ya ask? Or did ya assume? Or are u born with the gift of telepathy or mind reading?
3. How do you know if the other party does not like you back? Did he or she say he totally detest you? Or push you down a flight of stairs to prove to ya that he does not like you back?
No matter how much you tell yourself you don't like him anymore, there is always a place in your heart that is for him as you think of him still. N when you see him daily, those feelings will bound to rush back once in a while and think of the what if's. Instead of running from doubts, clarify to get answers so you can at least move on if there is no hope. Fight for your heart. Don't let it be hurt.
ok next thing is...
why on earth will someone make up fake and imaginary boyfriends?
that's like SAD.
LOL.
love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Today we had Television & Radio Production.
The first lesson was rather practical. No lecture.
We had to act.
yuuup, act infront of the class.
So Cheryl, Grace, Linda, Ying Ying, Yani, Fazlin, Adibah, Arthur, Cheryl 2 & I were in 1 group called Geiziest. LOL.
Don't ask me what does the name mean cause Arthur was the one who chose it. hahah. riiiteee.
Anyway, our play genre was Mystery. It was about who killed Adibah kinda thing. lol.
After school, I went back home with Michelle. Went to her house forawhile as she stays soooooooo near to meeee! hahahahah. Didn't dare enter her house at first as the dog kept barking n jumping. freaked me out. hahahaha.
Walked up to the 3rd floor where her room was. Her house sooo biggg! hahahaah. Looked & laughed at her class photos when she was in PLMGS.
Before i left, from her staircase to the main gate, the dog kept barking n followed me. ahhhhhh ! hahahaha. cute and calm when ya touch its head but when ya stand up it will "GRRRRRRRRRRRRR" . lol.
reached home in 5mins. hahahah.
Hop, Step, Jump!
love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
19 years old on 22 august!
So I woke up to more birthday wishes via smses. Not forgetting the testimonials I received. First person who wished me was Stella at midnight(who also wished me on the 20th ! LOL!) and MY BF DID NOT WISH ME EVEN THOUGH WE WERE SMSING AT MIDNIGHT N WAS PRETENDING CAUSE HE WANTED TO WISH ME IN PERSON. RITEEEE. LOL.
At midnight, my family sang a birthday song (with piano ok!hahaha) for me n we ate Swensen's Mango ice cream cake! My choice!
Anyway, after sch, I met an-nur first and we made our way to marina square. He received a call which was smt like "ya we are now at marina square..ya..ya..*starts to whisper*" RIIIIITTTTEEEE. lol.
so I asked whether I could see his phone n u know he is like blur rite, so I checked his received call list n I saw Ruth hp no. hahahah.
Around 7.30pm, Ruth, Daryl, An-nur & I went into Swensens first as Natalie was (as usual) late. She came later with her bf, Khai. Throughout the dinner and before that I was VERY suspicious of An-nur & the swensens manager lady. HELLOOOO, I wasn't born yesterday. lol.
Anyway the surprise was a Cookies & Creams ice cream cake accompanied with the Swensens crew singing a birthday song for me in funny hats n with musical instruments. LOL.
Gossips, bullying & making fun of each other was the DUH thing which we did during dinner.
Anyway, thank you to..
Michelle for the wallet
Linda for the earings n 3 birthday wishes n dedicated blog entry!
An-nur for the blouse
Nat,Ruth,Khai & Daryl for the purple bag cum wallet thingy from wallet shop
Nat Ruth, Khai, Daryl & An-nur for the "surprise" & cake
Mum & Dad & Aunts for $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
Brother & Kimberly for the butterfly neclace
What i got is more than enough already & i am really appreciative of it ! Those who never give me, its ok! i dont FORCE ppl to buy for me by smsing or emailing or banging on their door of their house to give me what i want. However, if u plan to buy for me, dont change ya mind!! lol. there is a diff ! hahahhahahahaha.
yes, believe it or not, natalie shaved her head n ruth & I have longer hair nowwww.
love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Ok so tmr sch starts again.
new term.
yawn.
sian.
tmr lesson is the first lesson on journalism. rahhaha.
tmr I have dental appointment! I plan to change back to purpleeeeeee or blue or green to celebrate my birthday.
LOL.
I'm siao.
mum is treating me to jacks place for dinner tmr! yeaaahhhh!
then tue is the actual day yah which I be prob be spending with An-nur, Ruth, daryl (her ex. Don't ask. lol. Long story), Nat n her abang-bf (not confirmed yet) at swensens! hahahhahha.
then on Friday my boyfriend AN-NUR be treating me to dinner again (isit? lol. Not sure about that heh heh heh! But I want Seoul garden lol).
so tue aint the only day I be celebrating my bday. but its like gonna be from mon to fri in a way! lolllllllll. cant wait! I be obese by Saturday. RAHHHH! NO NEVER! CAUSE WHY? I CANT PUT ON A SINGLE POUND! LOL.
So excited! Hope no disappointments.
remember Muhammad an-nur, if I kana sabotage in any way, u will ( imagine the drawing I like to draw with the head kana saw off from the chin! RAH!)
love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine
Friday, August 18, 2006
SO DISAPPOINTED! I don't know whats wrong with me. Today, I totally had no inspiration, no ideas. I had no idea what to write for my letter, report, memo,intercultural, eassay Qs.
I wrote rubbish lah especially for intercultural they ask to write about a commercial, I wrote something so irrelevant. N report..haiz. I wrote procedures that I doubt be accepted. DEPRESSED. So scared I score badly or fail. :( I hope not. haiz. People all are like "so easy!" kinda thing n leaving early while I sat there cracking my brains out n on a verge of tears n panic. Retribution for playing during the 3 days? haiizz. All the modules are kinda a disaster n the last paper was very disappointing. haven done English-shiy kinda papers in like a year or so? so yea..
anyway, now exams are over, I can continue reading my Zoey Dean A-list novel series. Its much better than those sweet valley high books. (Did u know I have the whole collection of Sweet valley JR high books? lol. nerd mannn.) hahaha. Its a drama mama kinda books like One Tree Hill & OC. The series is like about a bunch of rich kids. u like me I like u, I hate u u hate me biatch kinda thing. lol. Backstabbing, love, sex, whatever. lol.
Started reading them in like sec 4 or isit 5 but by then only 3 of her books came out. started reading them not long ago again..but now totally not in order. Only haven read the 4th(tall cool one), 6th (some like it hot) n 7th book (American beauty).
currently reading the 3rd(blonde ambition). I remember last time my friend, Ruth & I used to have a crush on the male character! lol. Adam Flood. rahaahahha. heyyyy! Not my fault the way the author described him n portrayed his personality like OMG-HOT-NICE-GUY. lol. Still remember one of my friends who saw me reading this series in class was like "ehhhh u reading sex book?!!" n still wanted to see those pages which described it. LOL. It does not have sex in it! Subtle sex descriptions maybe? LOL. aiyahhhh not like as though never seen it on TV! lol.
haiyah whatever. time to eat some chocolate cake and "cry" over spilt milk. raaaahhh!
love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
After 3182713827190 years, i finally had a chance to catch up with Ruthie Das.
Before i went to meet her yesterday, I had my TDMC ( EEEEEEEE ) exam paper. Left at around 3.45pm and went to meet AN-NUR first. Went to Wisma toeat at Macdonalds and to check out stencils at ArtFriend! lol. Aiyah so disappointing! Couldn't find my stencils. Guess should go to Bras Basah (WET BRAS) ?
After that went to CP to meet ruth. Her hair is also as long as mine but mine is longer! lol. Went to eat at the foodcourt which until today i don't fancy anything appealing to eat over there! We walked to church, St Anne's, for the Assumption of our lady. We sat at the side next to the choir area where the choir conductor was very entertaining when he did his hand motions with a pinch of drama-mama effect.
After mass we went inside our secondary school as we wanted to buy drink from vending machine but it was switched off. ha.ha.
We remembered the memories where we sat at the bball court circle..center court..whatever to copy maths homework before assembly to the walkway at the small enterance where the OM scolded us for apparently wasting his CCTV camera film as every movement we make is captured on tape and to the staircase is where we all(refering to me, denise,joyce, ruth n ) sat during recess as a pathetic amt of tables were assigned per class.
Yes i
remember but its a -1/1000000000000000000 chance i would wanna relive those days. urggh. cause i was still Single back then! lol.
i love being together with youuuuuu. laallalallalalaala.
ohhh n i used their weight machine..those electronic machines kind. n it said my weight is like 40kg lah! WTF! i am 42kg! lousy machine. expected.
(:
Time to watch my spongebob !
"are u ready kids? aye aye captian! who lives in a pineapple under the sea..? spongebob squarepants!" LOL. going to be 19 soon & still watching cartoons! lol.
can't wait to go out with you to pick out my pressie!
love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Ok so below are clothing(3 of it only!) I designed..But obviously I did not sew them. Thanks to aunt Freda(my sisters mother-in-law) and my mum, my designs which were in my head wouldn't be visually seen or displayed for others to actually know if it weren't for them.haha.
Well, I can't draw. Just a rough idea so that's why it is not as good as those designs u will see at project runway or Gucci or Dolce & Gabanna or even Topshop. LOL. Anyway I aint so talented. If not I be working for some top elite-branded brand or smt. lol.
If u personally
hate it, TOO BAD FOR U CAUSE I ACTUALLY MADE USE OF MY CREATIVITY. haha. Anyway if u don't like it, no one asked u to like it.
Kinda got my inspiration from magazines and also when u want this but it doesn't have that so yah so I put this n that together! lol. Its just Me I guess.
1. the purple polka dotted skirt. I like
purple as most of u know! haha. My mother sew this one. Has those heart n charm like stuff at the side and pearls at the white colour band. RAHHH! hahahaha. This is the latest one! hahahahaha.
2. My purple cheong sam skirt which I received nice & great comments about from my friends. hahahahahalalalallala. The material was purchased from Vietnam. Sewed by my Aunt. I LOVE IT!
3. Cheong Sam Top. Ok I did not exactly design this. Cause cheong sam tops designs are so common rite..so not much originality is there. I just wanted a cheong sam top! lol. Material also bought from Vietnam! and NO I AINT VIETNAMESE!
4. This one I definately
did not design. Joyce bought this for me for my birthday. Sorry Joyce if u are reading.. But my body don't really suit long skirts and I grown to prefer shorter skirts. BUT THANKS FOR THE SKIRT! So, I asked my mum to shorten the skirt. It was previously at the length of half of my calf there n now its like above above above the knee. rahahhaahha.
5. My graduation night dress. Sewed like one week before the event by aunt Freda as I couldn't find any dress that I like or matched ME as in ME. Its plain, yea but I like it cause of the purple butterfly. rahahrahra. but I cant fit in it already. lol.
(:
love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine
