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"the future belongs to those
who believe in the beauty
of their dreams"

eleanor roosevelt
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Tuesday, November 28, 2006


Sadness
hatred
regret
fear
hopelessness
jealousy
secretive
depressed

I cant control my future.
its beyond my control.
I need faith to believe.



pics by deviantart & oth

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Sunday, November 26, 2006

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

this is exactly what happened when ruth & I boarded a cab yesterday. we were somewhere outside TM and wanted to go to church at tampines itself. so, the uncles may not know where exactly a church is but when i say for example "St annes in SENKANG" or "Nativity church in HOUGANG" most know where it is already as there is usually ONE church per location. so whats the problem with this cab driver? does he only travel around ang mo kio and only ang mo kio only? this was exactly how the conversation went the moment i stepped in.
if u see caps then its when shouting is taking place. lol.

Cass: Uncle, holy trinity church in tampines.
rude taxi driver: huh
Ruth:holy trinity church

-silent few seconds pause-

Cass: holy trinity church
rude taxi driver: CAN SPEAK PROPERLY ANOT!!! (hello, was i speaking in japanese or was i going bla bla bla til it was not CLEAR FOR U??)
Cass: HOLY TRINITY CHURCH!!!!!!! U ARE THE TAXI DRIVER U SHOULD KNOW WHERE IT IS RIGHT! IF NOT I WONT BOARD A TAXI!
rude taxi driver: YA BUT IS IT MALAY, ENGLISH OR CHINESE?
Cass & Ruth: HUH!

-taxi man shuts up and anyhow drives around for a minute-

Cass: UNCLE, U KNOW WHERE U GOING!?!
rude taxi man: IM CALLING RITE!

-he was on the phone but i think he was faking it. ruth called emily to ask for directions-

then we asked him to just follow the train tracks
ruth & I looked at each other and started laughing openly behind him.
then WE saw the church n asked him to just drop us across the road.
IT COST ME 5 BUCKS TO GET FROM TAMPINES TO TAMPINES!

tsktsktsk.

however, a good thing came out of this. hahah. my aunty sweet son gave us all a lift to my sister house! hahah. we bumped into them in church. then when going home we didnt have to pay for our taxi ride. hhehh.

so my aunty sweet is slightly loosing her hearing you see.
then as my sister house does not have a lift, my aunty also cant walk up a hell lot of flight of stairs. her son decided to trick his mother. my sis lives on the second floor.

"no lift?"
"no ma, we have to climb up 13 floors"
"huh!! 18!!!"
.............
"its okay girls, u can go ahead as we got a long way to go. meet u all at the 13 floor!"
........
5 seconds later,
us, GIRLS:
"okayy! we reached!"
"cass, i think aunty sweet is very entertaining"

anyway, we thought it be such a bore. but a lot of things happened at the party that was quite entertaining. from seconds before by dad wanted to take a pic of ruth n i n some other ppl eating then ruth suddenly spills the longan drink on the floor which only we knew and when we decided to run away from the evidence, my dad shouts "EH! where u all going!?!? SHY isit!!??"
....dots.
later, we went upstairs to my sisters room instead of the THEATRE ROOM to watch tv where a bunch of kids, matthew, joshua, luke (Luke: MY NAME IS LUKE! L, U,K, E!. [riiiteeee]) ang gabrielle. luke kept hitting us. omg, so damn painful lahh! 5 year old n he hits like REALLY HARD. hahahah. but he is cute. but the way he attacks ppl is like hannibal lecter. lol. but CUTE!

gabrielle is a very smart hyper active 3 year old girl.
she was like "my name is gabrielle celestine periera. my nickname is babyG.i go to music school. HEY! u wearing braces!"

OMG, a 3 year old kid knows whats braces!
at 3, wtf did i know then?

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

"Regret comes in all shapes and sizes.
Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason.
Some are bigger when we let down a friend.
Some of us escape the pains of regrets by making the right choice.
Some of us have little time for regret because we are looking forward to the future.
Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past,
and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways.
But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did, but for the things we didnt do,
things we didnt say that could save someone we care about
especially when we can see the dark star that is headed their way"

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Tuesday, November 21, 2006



okaayy.
so since the end of exams on friday,
i went out on friday
went out again on saturday
stayed home on sunday to watch a little of The OC del lent me.
stayed home on monday to continue watching OC
stayed home again on tuesday to watch OC

and i still left with MORE OC Season 2 episodes.


(dont ask me why i took a picture of that. i was so bored til i ended up snapping pics of parts of my room n then deleting them) a DVD player in my room. FINALLY! :))


its like everytime i switch on the TV, OC will automatically run to the next episode.
its tempting.

n i never realised that The OC is REALLY funny. maybe last time its like one episode per week n will probably forget what happened last week kinda thing ya know. OC always makes me sad n wanna cry with all the drama going on but when u watch episode after episode, the sarcasm n whatever comments n expressions on their faces makes u laugh like continuously. usually its like "hahah" only. ok whatever.

well, between that, i did complete my wall.


:) it may not look so straight but whatever, i cant even draw a straight line. no one is perfect.


now whats left is put up the curtain rods and curtains.

and dusting and making my room NEAT. i haven touched or cleaned anything in my room since december 2005.


then leave singapore for my holiday.
yeaa aint excited anymore.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Sunday, November 19, 2006

on board the ship
:)


i look funny in this pic.


michelle. hope ya will have fun in america!

if only it was ...

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

i got this through e-mail.
THEY ARE SO CUTE!

there were more but these are my favourites.

top 1!

2.


3.


4.


5.

the kitten so sssmmmaaaallllll !

so adorable yea!

and i want this dog if i become a spinster for life !


OH DID U KNOW THAT HARRY POTTER THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX IS COMING NEXT YEAR JULY 12 !!!!!!!!

:)

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Monday, November 13, 2006

During tvrp exam I was struggling and was trying to open the tiny cap of my dry-type liquid paper. It just could not be uncapped. I was like 'ohh no wtf open u shit'. okay, why am I blogging about liquid paper?

so then on the way home, I saw a primary school boy standing in the rain trying to SHOVE (only some sec sch mates know that the word SHOVE has a connection/related thingy to me and a teacher) his OPENED umbrella into a dustbin. firstly, the dustbin hole is small, why dont u CLOSE the umbrella? And secondly, why the fuck would someone want to throw an umbrella away while it is RAINING?
no. sengkang ppl aint weird okay.

okay from here onwards if u dont understand what shit im talking about, whatever.

im gonna speak in code or somesort.

so anyway, I been talking to an-nur about being a ___________ and what he thinks about it. so then i asked my mother too how and stuff.
then she told me what my ______ sister experienced during her __________.
then my mother told me that i must be prepared to jump at least 3 storeys high and swim to shore.
and I went blank.
so just imagine if I actually did jump off the fake __________.
I be screaming from the moment I step off n til I hit the waters. Like "Ahhhhhhhhhhhh" all the way n when I land thru the waters, as my mouth is opened, I would probably have swallowed water and start panicking and then drown.
I would have failed.
I rather they overturn the damn _______ and it chucks me out of it then JUMP.
I think I rather be blown up in the ___________ than jump.
im ABIT afraid of heights. but if u ask me to anyhow just jump when its not even a life or death matter, I wont LOR!

but I will think about it more when I remove my braces and gain more weight.

$3,500 salary.

no, I dont want to be a stuntwoman.

these were my ambitions in the past-
zookeeper
pilot
doctor

SO UNREALISTIC HOR?

if I was a zookeper, I would have been eaten up by the anaconda on my first day.
and I would not even dare touch the butterflies or giraffes or ant eaters or baby illama or whatever. I would probably be a hopeless zookeeper. I only dare touch a sleeping cat or dog. Hamsters on my hand make me so geli. yet I want a hamster. fishes died within less than 24 hours under my care. the only bug I dare touch is an ant.

so if I was a pilot, I would fail the first interview. I would not even make it to the captain sitting area place thingy in the airplane. I forgot what it is called. I can only remember cargo, economy and business class. I would fail the interview as my eyesight is bad.
tssk.

I cant even touch a man's penis in the ward as a ex student nurse and I want me to be a doctor?? everytime I see a crumpled genital it makes me want to giggle to myself. so childish HOR. i cant stand the sight of sagging breasts, smelly diarrhea shit, small penises, stitches, open wounds and I wanted to be a doctor?
:S

I think I was dellusional.


*

i am still 42kg! since like 2 years ago? wtf. pissed.
by the beginning of next year...feb?.. i must be 45kg!
RAHHHHHHHH!!!!

BYE.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

okay, this is an email that was sent to me both by Cheryl & Linda.
why do they have such limited answers to choose?
those in brackets are the meaning of the ans.


1. WHAT SHADE ! OF HAIR DO YOU HAVE?
a) Dark [sexy- wtf ? so a person with white hair is what?]


2. OUT ON A DATE WOULD YOU WANT TO:
b) Go out to eat? [romantic.- yes yes whatever]
actually i would prefer to catch a horror flick at a cinema booked esp for me and my date with a waiter serving the snacks, eat at fullerton hotel for dinner and then followed by a night drive in a limousine with a tiffany diamond ring in a gift box presented by my date. all paid by my father who is the present of the universe]

3. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR OUT OF:
d) Turquoise [sexy.- so yes, i was told earlier by the computer]
hello, everyone knows its lavender. duh.

4. PICK YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBY OUT OF:
c) Skiing
did i even have a choice out of the 3? hello, i have not even done any of it. but since i never done skiing, i dont mind trying. cause i get to see and touch SNOW! (:

[daring.- expected u see.. did i ever tell u about the time i went snorkling with sharks followed by wrestling 2 crocodiles simultaneously and had tea with a anaconda?]

5. IF YOU COULD PICK A STORE OUT OF THE FOLLOWING, WHICH WOULD IT BE?
a) Louie Vuitton (shoes)
okay also how about gucci, guess, dolce & gabanna, prada, fendi for myself and topshop baby clothes for my kids in future?

[tasteful.- yea i know.]

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE OUT OF THE FOLLOWING?
b) London
yes yes london! JEALOUS ISIT? actually, i wanna go switzerland and venice.

[you are quiet and like the cold.- no comments as im quiet what]

7. IN THE SUMMER WOULD YOU RATHER GO TO:
b) Somewhere Cooler?
bring me to the north pole so i can help santa clause make some toys! i wanna meet santa! :)

[pale and original.- hello, if its summer, you want to burn and have skin disease is it?!?!?!?!?]

8. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH?
h) August
[fun.- thank you thank you]

9. WOULD YOU RATHER:
b) Go out with friends
to shop, talk crap and laugh at each other.
actually i would rather go to africa now to teach the kids. actually im serious.

[crazy.- yes, mentally ill.]

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE INSTRUMENT OUT OF:
a) Guitar
why didnt they have the piano??

[eye catching.- ahh? i only noticed that ppl like to look at me with a weird look like i got a lizard on my forhead or when my legs resemble toothpicks]

11) NAME A PERSON OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
an-nur
[this person will fall in love with you.- this person is already in love with me you jackass who created this]

====NOW MAKE A WISH!==
i wish for 1 million wishes and a genie in an ice mountain bottle.

[0-5 ppl your wish will not come true.- ohh. i only sent to 3 ppl. guess no genie then. :'( ]

oh, i scored 46 points.
yawwn.
sian.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Friday, November 03, 2006

this is a conversation between me n my friend poking fun at random ppl. however, i cant say the name to prevent any HATE from happening. lol.

◦ c a s ς says:
u know u & *** looked like Jack n Rose from titanic

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! says:
WAH LAU

◦ c a s ς says:
cause the way both of u dress can see a CLASS diff

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! says:
HAHAHAHAS

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! says:
U ARHS

◦ c a s ς says:
u wanted the truth what

◦ c a s ς says:
well, u seriously dont look like a bukit panjang plaza person lah

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
I LUK LYK WAD

◦ c a s ς says:
town

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
CHOA CHU KANG GIRL ?

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHAHAS

◦ c a s ς says:
hahahahha

◦ c a s ς says:
thats stella (this name i can say cause stella knows it herself)

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
I SEE . LOL LOL

◦ c a s ς says:
***** looks like tampines mall

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
WAH LAU . U DIFFERNIATE THEM BY THEIR STAYING

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHS

◦ c a s ς says:
*** looks like Lot 1

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
U ARHS

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHS

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
****** LUKS LYK LONG GANG

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHAS

◦ c a s ς says:
lol!

◦ c a s ς says:
no she looks like those Macdonald girls

◦ c a s ς says:
like study at Macs

◦ c a s ς says:
eat at Macs .. then go bedok buy cheap fruits

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHAHAS . U REALLLY MAKE ME LUFF

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHS

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
AND *#* TOO

◦ c a s ς says:
*#* the pasir ris park jogger

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
I TELL U . WHEN I SEE THOSE %% GIRLS RYTE , THEY LUK LYK GUYS NOW

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHAS

***
now, is the next part. its ABIT like 7 % dirty.

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHAS . I WANNA FIND A CLEAN SHAVEN GUY , AND A GUD LUKIN SHIT

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHAS

◦ c a s ς says:
SHAVEN EH

◦ c a s ς says:
even downunder

◦ c a s ς says:
no kutus caught

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
YEAS

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
MUST BE

are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
I HATE DIRTY GUYS

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
AND KANNOT B FAT

◦ c a s ς says:
X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
KANNNOT B TOO TANNED

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHS

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
AND KANNOT LUK LYK A ROASTED PIG

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHAS

◦ c a s ς says:
so must be clean n baige in colour

◦ c a s ς says:
thats like new colour pencil

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
YEAS , IF PREFERRABLY ANG MOH PLS

◦ c a s ς says:
ok i go england now n find for u

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
YEAS . GO FIND ONE FOR ME HUS KUKU NT SO LARGE

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
IF NT VERY PAINFUL

X I U L I N` projects are HELL nw ! omg . i need to destress real bad . clubbing here i cum ! says:
HAHAHAHAHAS

SO, if u fit the profile, wanna date my friend??
HAHAHAHAHAHAH
:)

its all fun. dont take us seriously, please.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Thursday, November 02, 2006

PICTURES!
dont ask me why I didnt turn some of the pics around.
twist your heads for it.
thats what the muscles in ya neck are for.

let me tell you about the many faces of an-nur. hahahah

smile with teeth an-nur.

smile without teeth an-nur

the trying to smile cool-ly an-nur

'errr' smile.

blank face. (eh where you looking at?)

the devil possessed face.


the fake smile.

the cheer-ry smile.

the sleepy look.

hahaha.

dear boyfriend, congrats on getting your bond at tan tock seng hospital!

I know u already aiming to be a BROTHER in the ward right.

hahahha.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine