eleven : fifty nine pm

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

MOVED!

if you want, ask me on msn or email if i didn't give you the link.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Monday, April 23, 2007

As I sit infront of the tv with my chocolate fudge cake with blueberry ice cream, I just feel so sad yet annoyed at the bulimic & anorexic girls that were featured on tyra banks show.

one lady was so afraid to eat the salmon fish fillet.
cause she know she is being watched by the medical clinic staff.
she also knows she has no chance to puke it out later.
i may not exactly understand how she feels but like common! the fish aint gonna make u be balloon up in 5,4,3,2,1, *POOF*!

tyra even said she is a size 8 but the lady wants to be a size 0 and does not even believe that she is thinner than tyra.

the other one was a anorexic mother of 2 who weighs 31KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she is really really really really skinny.
skinnier than me.

at least they are trying to get help and improve as they been battling with it for like 8-9 years?

so if u want to see skinny ppl, look at the lady not me!
im not even anorexic n yet ppl on the streets assume I am.

its like why do u wanna be so freaking thin ON PURPOSE?
it is not even healthy.

anyway i think i might die of heart attack.
cause i dont watch what i eat.
i eat unhealthy food which will surely clog up my arteries.
u dont have to be fat to have clogged arteries.

anyway, was surfing the net randomly and came across cho's disturbing plays which he wrote.
not sure if that is REALLY REALLY the original copy of the play.
i read the richard mcbeef.

uhhhh.

not as bad as what the media said rite?
maybe just towards the end only.

actually i expected something more shocking and sadistic.
also it doesnt really sound like what a graduating uni student would write though.

hmmm, oh well.

i teared today!
only an-nur knows why!
and the reason is quite funny.
haaaaha.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Sunday, April 22, 2007

"hey, have you started to cook as in really cook"
"HUH!! i thought it ended!"

hahah.

my cousin who is a year older has started to master the skills of a chef.
and i heard its good.

yea was just wondering when I will ever learn how to cook WILLINGLY.
as in if you throw me into a kitchen, i will be able to whip up at least 3 dishes (not fry an egg shit okay) at the tip of my fingers. and i mean EDIBLE DELICIOUS food.
NO cooking books.
NO kitchen disasters.

ruth thought it ENDED cause of the slavery we went thru during those f&n days.
so i guess when we all graduated from secondary school, ppl like us threw away those pots and pans, yan can cook & internet recipes knowledge down the garbage bowl.

my baking also CANNOT make it.
my muffins are like charlies angels muffin.
throw it against the wall and probably dent the wall.

"cooking and us dont go. ppl will die."

i just dont like cooking.
its so dirty.
and requires cutting, cleaning, gutting, scaling, breaking chicken bones, throwing away garbage and not forgeting cleaning up after that.

so troublesome.
i only like the eating part.

maybe soon i'll actually bother to bake a chocolate cake or cook sweet & sour fish or whatever SKILLFULLY.

as for now, i'll just pay people to do it for me.

:)

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Friday, April 20, 2007

vt uni.

loner
violence

merciless

its was like as though he was playing a video game.
just shooting randomly.
but this is reality.

i mean sometimes u get so depressed or angry n want to just "kill" someone or commit suicide..
but usually those thoughts will be there for less than an hour as its just words to you .
you know you wont actually do it.
obviously there was built up anger for god knows how long cause he planned it..
made video, took pictures, bought guns n stuff.

i don't blame him for feeling the way he did.
its just that the path he took to solve his problems n feelings was just wrong.
it just made matters worse.

*
okay bernis semestral exam is coming up next week onwards.
n I'm the one feeling nervous!
yes, for him mostly
and a little bit for myself
as the way i see it, my neck is on the chopping block too
okay i cant expect him to show miraculous results within the few weeks since ive came along
but how u wish he will show some improvement so ms Doreen will reallyyyy wantttt me
haha
but that also means more pain in the butt moments
anything can happen from now til whenever so lets just see
lets hope i be able to time manage it for the future as i suck at time management

*
xiulin, joyce, an-nur, etc etc etc you know who you are
clicky-click!

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

bleah.
school has just been so bleah.
so-so okay whatever you know.
i wrote 2 post but deleted them.
for the past 2 days life has been so uninspiring.

haha.
(i aint laughing)

first entry wrote about fake people.
delete.
next entry wrote about being mistaken for a foreigner.
delete.
repetition you know.

bleah.

i decided to order the last harry potter book via singpost thingy.
so i can be a kiasu maniac to read it when its out.

okay im off!

and
hello Bernis.

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Thursday, April 12, 2007

okay let me start of this post with teasing a very special friend of mine.
you see, she is a year younger than me but she always never fails to BULLY ME lahh.
so here goes..
from the bottom of my heart, I am very concerned for this girl til I have to post a shout to her ..

JOYCE!! ZOUK !! SO HAPPY FOR YOU! WHY U WANT TO KEEP THIS AS A SECRET FROM ME???
:(
LOL

**

Everyone has secrets.
secrets that sooner or later some will find out.
it may take a day, a week, a month or even years.

some secrets are meant to protect people.
some secrets can hurt people.
some are both.

sometimes its better to keep a secret for as long as you can just to prevent misunderstandings and sadness.
but how long can u prevent these secrets from being known?

it hurts to even keep a secret.

sometimes you just want to blame that person for the reason why you are even keeping a secret.
cause that person will NEVER understand cause he or she may be in her own traditional world.

look how the female cousins turned out.
keeping secrets of their own.
thinking no one knows.
but I know.
do you know mine?
its the same as yours.

**

Since I dont have anything SOOO damn interesting to blog about these days, I shall do that '6 weird things about you' thingy that both linda & Suey tagged me to do. :D

okay basically its just write down 6 weird things about yourself.
then state down the list of lucky people who must do this thing too.

SOOOOOOOO, here goes:

6 weird ass things about me.

1. When I use my parents master bedroom toilet, SOMETIMES (79% of the time) rite, no matter day or night, I will just pee in the DARK and sometimes with the doors open.

2. lately, my laughter goes like this: KEKEKSISHISI (ask nadeera or an-nur as they can immitate it FAIRLY well)

3. If i can't remember someone's (celebrity or friend) name, I can't sleep til i remember. I will bug people to remember it for me so that I can sleep.

4. If someone sneezes or coughs without using their hands to cover, I will try not to breathe when I pass by them as I know their bacteria is floating around them and will travel up my nostrils if i breathe the micro organisms in.
HAHA really!

5. When I see someone fall down or do something stupid, I will just smile broadly or laugh out loud (if I cant control) even when I am alone. Don't believe, ask bee lian!

6. I like to smell my boyfriend's armpit FOR FUN!

Ok the fortunate people who I would like them to embarrass themselves are:

NADEERA!
DELPHINE TAN!
CHERYL KHO!
AN-NUR!
MICHELLE!

if you got nothing to blog about, here's your chance! :D

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Sunday, April 08, 2007

egg represents darkness in the tomb and new life.

lessons to learn when stealing from family/relatives:
STEAL SMARTLY
DON'T LET EVIDENCE CATCH UP

too bad for my cousin though.
he better start shivering his balls off.

we always had evidence that he stole something in our house or attempted to.
(LOSER! TRIED TO STEAL MY SIGNATURED AVRIL CD BUT KANA CAUGHT BY ME!)
he stole A LOT of stuff from my brother but brother only found out like months or years later when it was too late. so he was saved in a way.
so on my parents anniversary, my dad's lighter (those engraved expensive kind) was SUDDENLY missing.
who was the last seated near it? my cousin! duh.
so now they are in Malaysia and my sneaky aunt (who has their house keys n went to feed their boar-ish golden retriever) found the lighter in my DEAR cousin's room.
my mother is fuming angry right now cause my cousin is her GODSON!

haha how upsetting and shameful.

but whatever to him, yay to us as he is finally going down!

his hands work super fast.
one blink of an eye, i think he would have stolen our entire living room furniture set.
he was able to steal it with me and a few others sitting at the coffee table where the lighter was last seen.
now my aunty who lives with us is in 90% denial (my cousin is HER FAVOURITE NEPHEW so she doesnt want to accept the fact that he has ever stolen from us).

my dad purposely said in front of her that he is going to shout "RUN & LOCK ALL DOORS!" in front of my cousin when he comes to our house.
HAHA.

we are all family and he still could do it.
such a let down.

yesterday met up with Ruth after her work.
intended to do henna and find out tattoo prices but in the end we made a quick trip to Little India to BUY henna tube and made our way back to the city to do it.
our skills suck big time.
we practiced doodling patterns on a PLASTIC BAG.
and u know must cut the tip of the henna tube rite so it can ooze out..
buttttttt we did not have any scissors.
so we started to get MAD.
created wacky ideas on how to cut the tip.

"put it against that lamp! it might burn the tip!"
"ask someone for nail clipper. surely one out of the 100 mats here will have. i give u $2 to ask them."
"NO THANKS. lets ask a maid"
"but maids only come out tmr and they be at lucky plaza!"
"ok lets wait for them"
"no, i think i go home and use my own scissors than to camp out here"

in the end we went to spaghetti's (is that how the restaurant is spelt? HAH) to borrow scissors as one of Ruth's friend works there.

what a day for 19 year olds!

JL expo is a let down to women!
more men should go there.

i decided to cut my hair! i think the straight hair is making me look way thinner!

ok tata!

Labels: easter ramblings

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Friday, April 06, 2007

way worse than tying a cats ear with rubber band!

I received an e-mail attachment of how the China people cruelly treated the animals
#@!#@!%$^%^%$^%$$%$#$#$#@

The animals (cats & dogs) were trapped in a TINY cage.
and its like A LOT of cats / dogs in one freaking cage that was THROWN on the floor like a useless object.

The moment I saw the man STRIP the cats fur off (!!!!!!!!), I immediately closed the video.
the way he stripped the cat was like pulling the entire clump of fur off leaving the skin.
I cant even bear to watch the remaining video.
OMG , WTF la!

I still have a cat please and I still want my second rabbit.
I'm not much of an animal lover but at least I don't have a heart of stone.

if u dare to watch, CLICK!

whereas lucky few will receive my forwarded email!

thanks bf for the banglesSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS , elephant and jasmine tea!
:D

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

slow Internet connections.
no auto roam! (i thought i had it!!)
prayers heard out loud in public.
unhygienic roads.
bugs buzzing around everywhere.
housing areas has this silent "noise" tt is rather disturbing to the ear.. as its so quiet at night.
mats and tones of girls in headscarf left, right, up, down, centre.
seriously, over there, there has no minahs.
the girls there all look like they have HOUSEWIFE written across their foreheads.
which is a good thing.

a car ride and window sightseeing, as i observe, i feel that they are so RELAXED.
no students in sch uniforms.
don't they go to school?
cause i do see teens, but they are all in their outside attire.
like they don't go to school..
maybe they want to be a roadside putu piring & goreng pisang entreprenuer.
or maybe a fake bomoh.
read their news paper and this bomoh had sex with his daughter's friend.
gave her SPIRITUAL HEALING.
like rite.
give me a break.

all i bought was like a bag, facial cleanser, a pimple cream.
don't ask me why i didn't buy any cheap clothing!
every piece of shirt is LONG SLEEVE! i mean its okay if I was living in Iceland.
i just don't like long sleeve tee shirts. i feel like im gg to choke and die under the sun.
their clothing is not my taste.
and also i dont want to come back to Singapore being mistaken for a roadside celedek seller.

i mean the country across the bridge is OKAY but.. nvm.
nothing against them.
just cant adapt to their lifestyle.

now lets move on to the language.
i spoke English.
they gave me a GIGANTIC question mark look.
i REFUSE to converse in bahasa melayu.
so i watched them struggle in english.
they did NOT answer my Q.
they made it all WORSE.

i asked this lady about a Neutrogena facial cleanser.
she said smt abt using it TWICE a WEEK.
RITE.
then she showed me some random cleanser and STRUGGLED HER GUTS OUT to speak in Ingerris.
then it was my turn to give her the HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!-look.
i gave up.
i politely took the xyz cleanser and placed it on some random shelf.
saved her the trouble of sweating.

next, lelaki.
i was being lame and decided to weigh ONE leg of mine at those 10cent weighing machine in those malls.
i turned around and these BUNCH of mats were laughing at me.
it WAS funny at that time so i also just laughed out loud.
then they continued to give me that GERL, GERL COME BE MY FRIEND LOOK so i ran away.

then at the clothing section, i was yawning like an uncivilised citizen of the country with my mouth open big w/o covering my mouth.
then when i was done, i noticed a group of Malay guys staring at me like WHAT-THE-FUCK!
why cannot yawn isit! my mouth or your mouth!

for the first two days of the trip, i was hooked on those sudoku puzzles in the news papers.
when sudoku craze came out, i didn't give a rats ass about it.
now when i tried it, im hooked!
then i bought the book.
on the second last day,in the evening, i completed about 20 sudoku puzzles!
haha.

i didn't dare eat out.
cause i didn't dare watch how they prepared the food.
I was afraid i loose my appetite if i saw them using unwashed plates or saw flies on the fish they used.
My dad ate mee soto on the first day at some mini town where selling fruits are their specialty.
I told him i was afraid i be poisoned to death.
then if i was poisoned, who is gg to tell an-nur when i don't have auto roam!?
the only food i bought out was an oreo cheese cake from Secret Recipe.
LOL.
I buy food from places i SEEN in Singapore.
I'm not spoilt.
I'm a fussy eater.
:D

saw a Indian drunkard dressed in black cycling on a busy road.
you could literally see the bicycle swaying and a car or two almost hit him.
saw two motorcyclist chit chatting while riding.
saw a medical centre that looks like bras basah complex.
saw a oil palm tanker tyres burst into pieces on the highway!
it sounded like a gunshot! lol.
jusco and that new mall is so disbelieving.
i think ang mo kio polyclinic has much more interesting things to see than there.
no wonder causeway point is always packed.

the car rides to and fro and around the town was funny as usual.
with my dad criticizing and making fun of things/people we saw.

overall the trip to the truly Asia country was averagely okay.

im sorry if u feel rather offended or pissed off at how i typed abt them.
lol.
i cant help it!

lastly a quote by my dad.
"why the food bite sizes so small? who you cooking for? dolls?"

my relationship with bf has passed the 1 1/2 year mark!
too bad we could not celebrate it as both of us were overseas.

i took an hour to type this!
HAHA.

Labels: dull greenery

love before midnight
eleven : fifty nine